Vampiregirl, 38

Looking for Mr Right now I have had 2 accounts on here but I don't know what happend to them.
I'm looking for friends and a boyfriend. I'm not getting any younger and I feel really pathetic because I've never been in a proper relationship. I also don't have many friends so my social life isn't that good either.
I really hope to have children one day and I worry because women airn't like men who can make a child at whatever age. I also really wanted to be a young mum and that didn't happen which is yet another slap in the face from life for me. I'm so worried about myself and where my life is heading. I still live at home with my parents because I don't want to live on my own and I can't afford a place of my own either. I hardly ever get to go to gigs because of having no one to go with and I hate how people are always telling me to go on my own. I don't want to go on my own because I have a s--- sense of direction and I would get lost getting to the venues. Also girls don't go on there own there userly with there wonderful boyfriends who drive them and protect them and I hate how I don't have that. Whenever I do get to go to a gig I get very upset because the stupid person I'm going with won't get there early and if I go with a friend my parents drop us off but they won't leave early. I then end up been jelous of everyone there because of them having cool parents who spoil them and let them sit on there shoulders or have wonderful boyfriends protecting them or loads of wonderful friends that I wish I had. People at gigs laugh at me too. I can also never get to the front which makes me feel really pathetic and jelous of all the people there and I get so worried that the band won't think I'm a true fan even though I would die for them. I also hate how I've never got on stage with Green Day. My family have also always hated the way I dress. My brother has always been the worst he hates goths and thinks there dirty.