Starshine86, 39

Break Me, Shake Me, Hate Me, Take Me On I have been with my Husband sense I was 16, married for 4 of those years. We were married on Halloween. I have a son that is 2, I strive to nurture his creativity and make him unique. I thought being a mom would change me, but I am the same person now as I was before I became a mom. If that is a good or a bad thing, I'm not sure. I seem to clash with 90% of other people in this world, so I spend most of my time being left behind by others. I don't know why that is, hence I am a loner and I have been for most of my life. You will never be able to pin my personality down. Once you think you have, I will surely be the opposite just a moment later. I thrive on being a contradiction to myself and I make nothing simple. I have a crude and morbid sense of humor, and make jokes that sometimes even disturb me, but I am just as capable of being silly and childish. I’m a homebody, walking that thin line of being a total shut in. I accumulate to much stuff, just because I can. I have an affinity for Stars, they make things instantly more appealing to me. My heart thrives on creativity, I believe that nothing is more satisfying than creating something that screams from our being, or looking at something that speaks to our hearts. There’s nothing that I wont try to make, at least once. I've learned from life that the best things happen by accident, just like good pictures. I am content with my life, but sometimes I feel like something is missing. Finding 'her' proves to be a very daunting task though. I always pick out girls that use me or lead me on and I end up heartbroken. I just want a girl that will show me as much respect that I show to her, one that actually asks me questions and shows interest in -me-. I don't want a fling or a passing thing, I want someone that wants to be a part of my family, my life, forever.

I'm very attracted to girls with a dark side. I love the --- appeal, the mystery, and the depth of goth. If only I had the money for the amazing clothes.