Mydarlingdear, 42

I am romantic, I love to watch cartoons and smoke. I go to gay dance clubs and frequent the dragshows, I am a party girl.I read, I write poetry.I love to travel.I dont have children or a lover, not yet. I am interested in a romantic goth lover. I need to escape this hell of thugs and gangsters that I am burdened with. I am an outsider to all I am surrounded by, I am different.I am crazy and hard to handle,I am wild and free. I have passion.I want a lover more dominant than I am. I am trapped in a spiral leading to hell and I need an avenger to take me away from this hell, of which, I am secretly tormented by. My life up until now has been aimless and miserable. I suffer a silent and secret agony, because nobody understands me. I wanna run away, I am 26 but I am treated like a child, sheltered, and medicated. There's nothing wrong with me, I'm just different from all these others. I love to party, but I love quiet time at home with a good book, my favorite is, The girl from storyville, by Frank Yerby. I like to paint, and play video games. I'd fall in love but there's nobody I can relate to. I design clothes and I do hair. I like cute things and stuffed animals.I have piercings. I need someone as crazy as I, or crazier. Maybe, I need some the exact opposite, I dont know anymore Someone who dresses like myself, not afraid to be themselves. I like supermilkchan, and helsing.I like to hold hands and kiss and cuddle and be abused.I love to dress up and I like it when guys wear dresses. I just want a hot, romantic guy- who happens to wear eyeliner and dresses as good as I do. I like to get high and stuff.I surround myself with the opposite S-- in order to escape the cattiness of the girls. I prefer handsome, verile, strapping, intelligent, dominate, young men.I only date younger men, well, perhaps there can be exceptions....I am hard headed and at times manipulative, but I am real and I am sweet. Find me, lover. Ive been waiting.