Jamesstaplesv, 63

newly widowed 62, 40+ years of "marriage" and 22 years of being her home hemo dialysis tech/nurse/ everything else hand and foot. we began way to "normal striving" , but i said fk it and well, she stayed "normal" i went to the underworld . [oh to dress like that daily !!!!] i have been to mortuary science school and worked as an apprentice embalmer and coroners removal and autopsy asst./ morgue manager. been out due to back injury and {things that i walked in on at work one day] . moved from california to missouri in '94 ,looking to find people who are, awesome and are nice ? sure all things dark and victorian gothic ... but people suffer , seeing it is my oppurtunity to do something anything about it . honestly, a very new amazing friend wasable to make me decide not to live out my dream of going to the ukrainian gray zone, killing a bunch of russians and armour , piss them off really good like i was trained to... then, when it looks good... go dancing in the artillery barage !!! woo hooon but alas, now i think i may have more training use and purpose than that [so i am torn] but staying. i have 5 fan ---n tastic kids, 10.5 amazing g-kids . love family [but not malignant narcissistic personality disorder abuse ; and am now on high alert for staying away from 'some things' it is mean... but my wee brain is really my last bastion.] also, i am bald as my snakes - i inherited alopecia from my maternal g-mother ; at 7 went bald when i went into the army i grew enough hair to shave. when i got out i was bearded only till about 5 years ago ... within a few weeks... slick as glass .n physically "battle worn" but working to regain and restrengthen for as long as i can. n hope this helps. noh also, insane for what we do in the shadows, and archer !!!
aaaaannnndddd cannaibis and psychonautics !!!!!!!!!!
active freemason , junior deacon local lodge and chaplain at scottish rite 32 degree .