Damienslayer, 36

This is probably the most tricky question I've gotten, but it can be explained. I'am a very passionate and loving person, I can get very emotional, yet I won't show it most of the time because I have been emotionally damaged from years of bullshyt so don't expect much from me until I could trust someone. For some who think religion gets in the way of relationships I must tell you that I do follow the left hand path (LHP) and I'am a psychic, so religious tolerance must meet my standards because my last relationship went down the ----ing tube because of this reason. I try to find reasons and question everything with a quick smirk and a smile like shirlock holmes so I find myself to be a very intelligent person. Not only do have a dark demeaner about me, but I have my plus points to my personality, which I consider one of my best aspects about me other then my eyes that most people seem to get trapped in. (believe me I could attract men and women with solely my eyes, but I'm very loyal to the person I will stay with). Not only that but my blood ---- is something else so if you don't like pain it's probably not a good idea to stay with me, but speaking on that topic I wouldn't mind a masichist around me because I would be able to share the same feelings and pain with that person, pretty much I'll try to find a mythic connection with that person. I personally one one case will get turned off by women who smoke or do drugs so if your around that area I don't mind being your friend at least, but I have a keen sense of smell that drives me insane at moments when i smell cigerette smoke or bad weed! (believe me I have smelled that shyt before and it's not pleasant my friend. I want to be with someone who can make me smile everyday, tell me they love me with a passion, To do little things that I will always remember and cherish. I want to be happy, but thats an understatement seeing how difficult that is for me.