Kindred Souls

[sonofsociety (deleted)]

I am new to this site, and was just looking to find out some thoughts and beliefs from some other members.
I am a 25 year old contractor, but before I got into construction I worked for a carnival company as a water race agent. during that time I traveled to some places in eastern europe and mexico, and was introduced to the true goth culture. In some of these places it is not a trend but a religion. I hate conformed society, and am a very s----l creature, so I was engulfed by it. I also spent some time in prison after getting out of the carnival and further persued my study of the darker side of society there. And now besides my work goth is my life. So I would love to hear from anyone that would love to share their knowledge and beliefs.

[vampedboy (deleted)]

It sounds like it was a great experience. I hope i get an oppurtunity like that some day. Minus the prison perhaps.

[virilioe_PREV (deleted)]

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[kaosink]

I’m a 27 year old male, living in Glasgow, Scotland – I’m not sure I would describe myself as Goth exactly, but I am dark minded. I was a bit of a late bloomer, since I was young I always behaved and thought differently from most, though I never really noticed this fully until I went to high school – were I soon earned the nickname “Damian†or more unoriginal and plain “weirdoâ€Â.

But I’m getting ahead of myself really – as I could say my taste in things was warped mainly thanks to my elder brother whose taste in music, books, and friends, showed me a side of life I never had experience before. I respected and looked up to my brother – and to a certain respect wanted to be like him.

Back in the days when Goths where a rare thing to see – my heart would skip a beat by seeing anyone who choose this fashion choice (especially the females) and thought about dressing this way – though I never really thought it was for me and never had the nerve to try it in my younger years.

It wasn’t until I was in my late teens, that my brother started showing the signs of manic depression which soon became schizophrenia (though at the time none of my family really knew what was happening – I didn’t either, but because I shared a room with him – I seen more of his disorder than anyone, I started to wonder what was wrong.

Soon he became unbearable, from changing room, then eventually house in order to get away from it all – I wasn’t privy to exactly what was happening, but he was now going to a mental institution, and receiving medication. In those days, my mind was soon becoming the dark and morbid thing it is today – I realised that from an early age I had experienced death and gone to funerals, it seemed like almost one after another.

I decided I would visit my brother myself (I had gone a few times before with other family) it was then I realised that any future he might have had (he was incredibly intelligent) was now shady at best, and saw something in his eyes that was the pale shadow that used to be my brother.

The darkest days then began – I had decided within myself to begin the mourning of my brother, for me he had already passed away, all that was there was a shell – so even though it was a blow to find out that he had committed suicide) and we discovered he had stopped taken his pills (he had told me he hated the way the pills he was taken was making him feel.)

Though the biggest blow was with the doctors in the institution who told us afterwards that having schizophrenia often harbours suicidal thoughts also – now we may have seemed ignorant not knowing the exact symptoms, but I feel we were all in such a daze how to cope with it, that we never thought of much else (and the doctors really should have told us, since he was allowed out on day trips – why didn’t we get told if we should be keeping an eye on him.)

And ever since I’ve had a more than cynical view point on the way things are – I did go full on Goth for a while, but I felt the Goth image is way too cliché nowadays, and found it’s more important on how you think and feel.

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...it's just a lifestyle for me...I don't even think about it...though it seems that other's on the 'outside' sometimes do. I've been a witch for longer than I can remember, or want to!!!! You'll find the way..seems you are.
nateseia

[bluewaterdragon]

I wish I could be more into than I am, I just find it hard to find the kinds of things I want to wear in:
a) A size I can wear and,
b) A price I can afford.

My other problem is that people look at me funnily already, if I went out in what I really feel is 'me'. I'd stop traffic.

I would laugh... but I'm currently sitting on a rapidly disintegrating Ikea swivel-chair, and do not wish to tempt fate. TC.

[bloodsucker969 (deleted)]

`I live in indiana. I'm 19 and a HS grad. I'm an pencil artist and I love anime/manga ^_^